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February 21st, 2012

PMS

I am PMS-ing like crazy right now, sorry if that’s a little too much information for some of you.. but come on, we’re all girls here. I sincerely apologise to any male readers I may have, you might want to skip this post! I just felt so effing gross today. I felt disgusting when I looked at myself in a mirror. In my place, I saw a huge, disgusting, blob, with massive pores and horribly, frizzy hair. Apparently poor self image is a symptom, I only just learnt that. I also felt angry, and highly emotional.

I was at my boyfriend’s place before being all moody and pathetic, moping around and feeling sorry for myself. Eating cookies, crying, wanting to shove copious amounts of food in my mouth. I was depressed that my magazine idea I’ve had for such a long time failed and was just compared to Rookie, before it even began. I was sad that I haven’t really achieved anything in my twenty-one years of life despite thinking of myself as a pretty determined and ambitious person. I was also quite upset about something that always seems to get to me when I’m PMS-ing, even though I know it’s a stupid and pathetic complaint.

I just always feel so ugly. When I was younger, I was called ugly multiple times by guys and no one ever had a crush on me. No one has ever lusted over me and I’ve never been ‘chased’ by a guy. I had to do all the work to be with my boyfriend, which really bugs me sometimes. I’m not sure why. Ugh, what a freaking lame thing to even think about. I should be grateful that I’m healthy (well, kind of) and able to do most things. Ugh, us girls, we literally run on a cycle. Well, I definitely do. I mean, I’m so irritable and irrational right now, all because there are some hormone levels altering in my body. Our state of mind can change so much from a few chemical reactions.

In 2010 when I was about to go to the U.S and leave my boyfriend for 6.5 months, I was PMS-ing, yet again. The Notebook happened to be on television, a week before I was going to depart. That was the first and only time I’ve watched it. I, honestly, cried for the entire movie and it wasn’t even that good! My brother also happened to be in the room at the time, so I had to stop myself from making any sound. I was sitting there, balling my eyes out, I became a silent human waterfall.

Currently, I feel very on edge, I’m going to go before I begin to rant about something entirely pointless.

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February 19th, 2012

IT’S HUMID UP IN HERE

Really, it is. Well, not so much now, but damn, I was very uncomfortable before. My bff and I decided to go op shopping, it was a huge effort during this tropical day. I didn’t find anything. It’s becoming harder and harder to find anything decent at op shops these days. Everyone goes op shopping (thrifting) now. I did manage to find this royal purple, sixties style coat, with a dark purple faux-fur collar and sleeve trims. It was cute, but the fabric was shocking and it was a little bit too small on me.

Other than making daily life a pain, the humidity also seems to turn my skin into a train wreck. So many clogged pores, ew. Does anyone else experience this problem? I think the only positive thing is the fact that I justified the purchase of a white chocolate magnum. Oh man, so good. On second thought, I wonder if that is actually a good thing. I mean, nineteen grams of fat, eight of which are saturated. That’s not exactly… desirable. Ugh, If only junk food was actually healthy, I would be the healthiest of them all! Noticing and realising the actual fat contents of food, makes me want to shove carrot sticks in my mouth. I actually did that before (well, not the shoving part), my boyfriend gave me some hummus to assist with the dull taste of carrots (actually, I don’t think they’re that bad) and I suddenly became aware of something, previously unknown to me. I don’t like hummus. Strangely enough, it tastes like… nothing, with a hint of vomit. Lovely, I know.

I learnt (via more than enough fashion websites) that wearing hot pink and black together is a no-no. Apparently it looks dated. Man, whatever. I don’t care, watch me wear this ‘dated’ style. I had loads of stares today, again. NEWS FLASH, it’s not ok to stare at women like they’re objects, no matter what they happen to be wearing, fuck sticks. Can a fellow human being get some respect?! Geez.

I was working on the coolest gif for DARK VICE, ever, when photoshop decided to start malfunctioning. I was way too ceebs to begin the process all over again. Sorry. I’ll make it again some other time. Here is an image of the Unif Hellbounds, in a magnificent shade of pink instead*. Oh yeah, I’ll be wearing these gems with black clothing too. Suck it, fashion police!

*Image found on tumblr.

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February 18th, 2012

SIXTY

I’ve never had a direct influence to my style like some people seem to have and to be honest, I never really got that obsessed with vintage style. I’m not really ashamed to say that I buy loads of brand new clothes from chain stores, albeit, online chain stores. I mean, why should I be? I don’t like that certain… pretentious, hipster, stigma, that buying from ‘malls’ too much is a bad thing. Yes, we live in a pretty damn consumerist society. What are you going to do people? As I stated quite a few posts back now, our existence, is basically entirely pointless, so buy whatever the fuck you want, from wherever the hell you please, while you can. I buy clothes that I like and that I can afford from a variety of sources.

That was pretty off topic to where I’m going, I apologise. There is only one fashion era from the past that I have any attachment to. Yeah, that’s right, this blogger doesn’t really give a shit about the 90s revival. Yes, I was born in 1990 and my entire childhood was the 90s but for some reason, I don’t feel any  sense of nostalgia about it. Probably because my childhood was freaking shit. When I was a child, I didn’t care about the present and I didn’t think about the past, I was completely enchanted by thoughts of the future. I would day dream about a magnificent future, where I didn’t cry every single day, instead, I drove around in a flying car in the darkness with neon lights everywhere. As I got older and become interested in style, there was one decade of the past that stuck out to me.

The sixties, mostly because of miniskirts. Did you know that the term ‘mini’ was named after the car? How funny, that’s basically the only car I like! I’ve always been a shorty. In all my school class photos, I’m always seated at the front, with the short people. Every single time we lined up in order of tallest to shortest, I was always at the end. These days, I’ve grown to a staggering 5’0. Yes, I know, who ever thought I would have vertically expanded to such a height? During my teens, I always felt so short and vulnerable. It didn’t help that my brother would often call me stumpy. The skirts that were part of my school uniform, were naturally a maxi length. Everybody had their skirts shortened. To a few inches below their hips. My yiayia (grandmother) shortened mine and would only go as short as, just above my knees. Suffice to say, I felt like a fool.

A few years later, when I had my first casual job, at sixteen, I went clothes shopping by myself, for the first time. Fashion was having a sixties mod revival at the time and I completely fell in love with all the classy looking mini skirts and dresses. Finally, my legs looked longer and I didn’t seem to be drowning in my dresses. Following the same trend of the sixties, to compensate for the extremely short lengths, I invested in a lot of tights. I was the tights queen man. At one point, I even wanted to have my own tights/sock shop when I was older.

Actually, I still really like tights and socks. I have two separate drawers dedicated to them in my room. So, that’s my favourite decade of the past, in terms of style, folks. I love the length of the clothes, the swing coats, the peter pan collars, the hair, the make up! I just like a lot of things from the sixties. The style of shoes is probably one of the only things I’m not a huge fan of. A few weeks ago, I stumbled upon a jackpot of images from the sixties, (I don’t remember the source, so if you do, please let me know!) and decided to share some with you.

I decided to dress with a sixties influence and Edie Sedgwick style make up. Wearing my new Zana Bayne harness as a necklace… ah, the options. :)

I edited my lips and made them red here, I just wanted to see how red lips would look with this eye make up.

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February 15th, 2012

YES!

After having a few pretty boring (mega yawn) outfit days, I was glad that today was a good one. It could have been better if it wasn’t so damn warm again though. Ideally, I wanted to go op shopping today, but I can’t seem to function in this weather. Ah well, what do I expect? it is summer, but only two more weeks of this shit to go! Let’s (or just me) hope that autumn aka fall, cools down quick smart, aye? *bogan accent*

Surprisingly, this outfit was chosen by my boyfriend. My wisdom tooth extraction site began to bleed like crazy at midnight, I was literally pulling out big clots of blood from my mouth, (sorry if that’s tmi) and I didn’t get to sleep until 3.30am, after a big day, so I was bloody knackered this morning. I don’t know what’s up with my slightly bogan wording today. Maybe it’s the painkillers.

Seeing as I was so tired, I begged my boyfriend to choose my outfit instead, so I could just lay there. He did pretty well, I changed the order of the layers, added the harness and I liked what I saw. Sometimes I wish I could wear outfits this good for the duration of the entire week.

Before I forget…

OMFG I FINALLY GOT ZANA BAYNE HARNESSES, WEEEEEEEEEW

I’ve wanted one (all of them) since I saw the first collection. Took me long enough to actually get some. I decided to save up separately for them during my short stint at Hugo Boss and then it was a matter of making the hard decision. I was always going to get the oxford harness, but I had to choose between the basic harness and one of the patent harnesses, I don’t remember the name and her shop is under maintenance at the moment. After seeing these babies, I’ll definitely be saving up to get the other harness I couldn’t manage to purchase this time around.

I could probably wear this oxford harness in every single outfit I have. Really. Does anyone else who have her harnesses struggle to not wear them with everything?

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February 14th, 2012

I DON’T LIKE VALENTINE’S DAY

If I see another blog post about V-day, I think I’m going to puke. I thought about whether or not I should include that, it seems a little harsh. However, I noticed someone mention their dislike for people who are against this day, so I was like, screw it, let my animosity towards Valentine’s day be known! I have never liked this day and I doubt I ever will. Unless you’re new to this blog, you will already know that it’s not because I’m single. Yes, I am in a relationship and we didn’t celebrate it. I did get two of my wisdom teeth out today, but that’s not why!

I don’t like it, probably for similar reasons that other people don’t like it. It’s so commercial and just… shit. Now you can say, oh sure, it’s a little commercial these days but, what about the romance? But come on, if you’re that in love, don’t you find it (v-day) slightly (understatement, EXTREMELY) cliche and not that romantic at all?

I mean, what the hell is romantic about someone buying you red roses or a tacky hallmark card or heart shaped chocolates? etc. Most people (mostly guys) purchase these things for their significant other because they have basically been brainwashed to, they’ve been told that these things are romantic, these things will make your partner appreciate you more. These completely pointless gifts are so generic and involve little to no thought. I don’t see how buying into it, is romantic at all. I’d find it far more romantic if my boyfriend organised something ‘romantic’ for us to do on any other day, (when it won’t cost triple the price and be a lot more spontaneous/exciting) purely because he wanted to, not because he felt pressured by a stupid money making scheme.

I also don’t enjoy Valentine’s day because a lot of people think that it’s the one day where it is absolutely ok to publicly display their affection. I mean, I don’t mind seeing people hold hands, or kiss… occasionally, but full on make-out sessions? Please people, keep it at home and have some damn respect for the people around you. When I eat, I don’t really like to watch a couple have a tongue battle, and yes, sometimes, there is nowhere else to sit. The city is a busy place!

Ugh.

I’m going to move on to the Wisdom teeth removal now. I had it done at the dentist, in the chair, as people say. I didn’t feel any pain at all, not even when the needles to make my mouth numb were going in. When the dentist was taking the teeth out, I felt pressure, but no pain. The thing that freaked me out the most, was the effects of the medication that numbed my mouth. It caused heart palpitations and my whole body (mostly legs) was shaking. At the end of the procedure, I felt like I couldn’t breathe and became kind of claustrophobic, so that part was fairly frightening. My cheek isn’t puffed up anymore and I can talk properly now. I haven’t had any pain killers for about seven hours and, currently, I’m not experiencing any pain, which is good. Hopefully this continues tomorrow.

I tried to do the beehive style with my hair, it turned out… ok, unfortunately I don’t have any pictures of the end result, because just as I finished, I went to hospital. It was the day of the freak out. I think I’m going to attempt it again in a day or two, I’ll take photos then. :)

I had an interview for a volunteer position yesterday, I applied to help out at L’oreal’s Melbourne Fashion week, so I tried to go for a simpler look. I still looked like the most ‘alternative’ person in the room. Sigh, hopefully that didn’t go against me. This velvet skirt is sooo comfortable but as I walked, it kept going up my not so small thighs. So sadly, it’s off to the e-bay sell pile. Which has been growing for six months. As soon as I get the internet, (I’m seriously hoping in a day or two now) I’m listing everything! I’m going to sell my lita spikes too, they are nice… but I just don’t wear them enough. Oh, I start most of my bids at 99 cents. If anyone is interested… let me know, so that I may share the links when I upload.

Pretty low key outfit today, well… the dentist liked my outfit! haha.

So I haven’t seen anything from NYFW that has really excited me so far. I decided to share a few things I thought looked interesting though.

First up, we’ve got Marc Jacobs. Not really my style, well, I could possibly imagine myself in a few pieces… maybe. I like the glitter looking fabric thing going on. Is it just me, or did anyone else think of Dr. Seuss once looking through this collection?

I’m not exactly a fan of grey, but I think this collection by Thom Browne looks fascinating.

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