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LIFE LAG

I am so insanely drained right now. I can’t even begin to think about what I was supposed to type for this post which I started thinking about two weeks ago.

Last week was very negative and strange. Life is strange. Or maybe, it’s not that strange at all, maybe it’s just my perception. Maybe I’m just strange – probably.

I must have looked incredibly miserable because in the last seven days, a number of complete strangers felt compelled to sincerely ask if I was okay. It’s interesting to observe how willing people are to open up to you when the answer they receive appears to be honest. I informed these individuals that my week had been terrible, that I felt like shit, instead of the usual, “I’m fine, thanks”. In response, these complete strangers would share personal burdens they carried on a daily basis, many of them told me things that made my sadness seem completely pointless.

Well… it is.

A sadness that no one gives a fuck about is perhaps the most pointless sadness of all.

These images are a little meh – probably because my state of mind is meh to the extreme. It also doesn’t help that my ageing computer can’t seem to handle what I try to render in photoshop these days.

Everything is flux, so I will be too.

Goodnight.




 

YOU SLEEP IN CLOUDS OF FIRE

So, so happy
When happiness spells misery

 

It is a sadness that never seems to end, you don’t remember when it began, you don’t know when it will end – if it will ever end. In the moment, you don’t really care. In fact, you don’t care about anything at all. You feel hopeless, bored, unmotivated. Everything seems dull, the world around you goes silent, and interaction with other people offers zero appeal. There is no joy, no light, no colour – only absolute darkness. Eventually, you feel numb, perhaps a subconscious strategy to deal with the constant yet subtle, emotional torture.

Let the images explain, you don’t write well anyway.

CHAINED MYSELF

Last year when Get Lucky was released I was not impressed. I love Daft Punk and I really like Pharrell too but I just didn’t (I still don’t) find that song very exceptional. In fact, I was so disappointed that I didn’t bother listening to Random Access Memories, I was also incredibly busy. I had a few hardcore Daft Punk fans in the class I was teaching at the time. They tried to persuade me, according to them, the new album was, “so, SO, awesome!” I foolishly didn’t listen to them, but those kids were right. I decided to listen to the album while working on the images for this post and… wow, some of the songs are brilliant. I guess I’ve been missing out. I am currently swamped with tasks to complete so I’m going to stop typing pointless rambles and instead use Daft Punk’s lyrics to convey my divided thoughts.

I didn’t want to be the one to forget
I thought of everything I’d never regret

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I listened to your problems, now listen to mine

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we will never be alone again

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he thought he saw someone that looked just like me

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there’s a world within me that I cannot explain

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many rooms to explore, but the doors look the same

LOST
I am lost, I can’t even remember my name

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when you decided to walk away, when I wanted you to stay

SO CLOSE, YET SO VERY FAR

It’s time to say good riddance to the past.

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BUT, that was then. This is now. Whatever now is…
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CAN NOT HANDLE

I can’t deal with heat, it sucks the life out of me. I’m sitting here, feeling sticky, drained and generally disgusting. Mm, so nice. Good thing I have so many photos to update you all on, because warm weather does not exactly inspire me to dress very well.

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Photos of my friend Jana who has been on this blog before. These are from New Years Eve. Wow, that seems like a while ago now.

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