I went to the doctor yesterday and told him that I think it’s time to try medication for my anxiety issues. I have been avoiding it for about six months but after more recent anxiety attacks, I thought it was about time I try something new, I guess. After I received the medication at the pharmacy, my boyfriend read the informative pamphlet and advised me against taking them. I didn’t read it myself, because I knew that it would scare me off the medication. I always think I’m going to get the worst side effects when I read those things. The pharmacist did tell me that most people get insomnia, nausea and headaches though, which was enough to tempt me to research the drug online. Well, that was a bad idea, I found myself on a whole forum about the drug: Paxtine.
Almost every user on the forum who had used it advised against ever taking it. I’m not sure what to do now. I’m sick of feeling anxious so often but at the same time, I don’t want to be stuck in this drug loop. The Pharmacist told me that I could be on it for three years. Apparently trying to free yourself of the drug is hell. The thing that turned me off the most was reading a few people mention that they still had panic and anxiety attacks while they were being treated with it. What’s the point of taking something if it doesn’t even seem to work properly? I mean, I don’t think I’m even that severely depressed. I have hypochondria, I don’t create symptoms, but I overreact when any symptom, no matter how small, presents itself. I know it sounds crazy, but I even feel my anxiety growing when I just have a headache.
Has anyone else ever suffered from hypochondria? I could really use some advice right now. Yeah, yeah, I know I should go talk to a professional, but I saw a psychologist for six sessions last year and it was expensive as hell.
My boyfriend is very interested in drugs. Not just illegal substances, but drugs in general, he finds their effects interesting and reads a lot about them and seems to think that there are far better options. I’m not an expert, and neither is he. However, neither is the doctor that prescribed them to me. Perhaps it would be better to see a psychiatrist. Ah, so confused!
A bunch of people walked past and laughed at me today while my boyfriend was taking photos of my outfit, meanies!