March 6th, 2012

NUMBER SIX

I went to the doctor yesterday and told him that I think it’s time to try medication for my anxiety issues. I have been avoiding it for about six months but after more recent anxiety attacks, I thought it was about time I try something new, I guess. After I received the medication at the pharmacy, my boyfriend read the informative pamphlet and advised me against taking them. I didn’t read it myself, because I knew that it would scare me off the medication. I always think I’m going to get the worst side effects when I read those things. The pharmacist did tell me that most people get insomnia, nausea and headaches though, which was enough to tempt me to research the drug online. Well, that was a bad idea, I found myself on a whole forum about the drug: Paxtine.

Almost every user on the forum who had used it advised against ever taking it. I’m not sure what to do now. I’m sick of feeling anxious so often but at the same time, I don’t want to be stuck in this drug loop. The Pharmacist told me that I could be on it for three years. Apparently trying to free yourself of the drug is hell. The thing that turned me off the most was reading a few people mention that they still had panic and anxiety attacks while they were being treated with it. What’s the point of taking something if it doesn’t even seem to work properly? I mean, I don’t think I’m even that severely depressed. I have hypochondria, I don’t create symptoms, but I overreact when any symptom, no matter how small, presents itself. I know it sounds crazy, but I even feel my anxiety growing when I just have a headache.

Has anyone else ever suffered from hypochondria? I could really use some advice right now. Yeah, yeah, I know I should go talk to a professional, but I saw a psychologist for six sessions last year and it was expensive as hell.

My boyfriend is very interested in drugs. Not just illegal substances, but drugs in general, he finds their effects interesting and reads a lot about them and seems to think that there are far better options. I’m not an expert, and neither is he. However, neither is the doctor that prescribed them to me. Perhaps it would be better to see a psychiatrist. Ah, so confused!

A bunch of people walked past and laughed at me today while my boyfriend was taking photos of my outfit, meanies!

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  • makeitlikemagic

    i personally think that you shouldn’t take the risk of using the drugs. it’s better to have anxiety attacks than be stuck in the drug loop AND have the attacks at the same time. seriously, though, don’t take them!!!! i sincerely hope you’ll get better really quickly and soon :(

    • http://darkvice.net/ Magnet

      Thanks for the advice :) Yeah, I’m not sure what I’m going to do… My auntie is a hypochondriac as well and had a really bad episode of it when she was around my age too. She saw a psychiatrist and felt a lot better in about six months to a year. I might go see the psychiatrist she saw before I do anything.

  • http://spitfashion.blogspot.com/ l

    love the outfit as usual. i think drugs can really help and it’s unfortunately just not realistic to expect one to make every single little symptom go away, especially right awa, unless youre prepared to be so doped up you don’t feel like yourself anymore. i had a friend use an anxiety drug called celexa which i think worked really well for her. i can’t speak for it myself as ive only used zoloft (for like a week and then i got too freaked out by the side effects). zoloft is fairly safe though, i think the biggest risk is if youre pregnant (which i assume youre not) it can cause birth defects and stuff. but thats most of it.

    • http://darkvice.net/ Magnet

      Thanks for your input, I was prescribed Zoloft once but never took it, after reading about all the side effects. It’s hard for a hypochondriac, like me, to take medication knowing how many shitty side effects are involved.

  • http://ergy-erg.blogspot.com/ Caroline

    Ugh-all sounds so stressful for you at the moment :( hope you can work out the right choice soon! Love the first photo-so magic :D just popped you in to my fave blog list! xxxx

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  • http://cupcakesandtreacle.blogspot.com/ Lidiya

    The style of these photos are amazing; I adore the vivid colours and your shoes are fantastic <3
    http://cupcakesandtreacle.blogspot.com/

  • Sarah

    Great photos! I suppose all you can really do with the drugs is take them and see how it goes. You never know; they might completely clear your anxiety for good. I hope they work for you xxx

    niftythrifts.blogspot.com

  • http://www.sequinsandbeads.net/ Georgie

    I had the opposite problem with my doctor in that he would only ever give me very low dose anxiety medicines or just recommend me counselling. Definitely listen to people’s testaments regarding the one you were given though, if it did make you ill it would probably make your hypochondria worse. Maybe google the most effective meds for anx and ask your dr for them? I hope you feel better soon, mine was severe till I left school which I think was the source of my anxiety – I know how crappy it is! On a happier note your shoes are frigging awesome, one day I will own a pair of Jeffreys *gazes wistfully into distance* Also mega jel of the fact you actually have a willing blog photographer, my younger brother point blank refuses to take outfit photos for me these days XD

    • http://darkvice.net/ Magnet

      Thanks for the advice :) and HA, my boyfriend doesn’t exactly enjoy doing it. Sometimes when I ask him he just gives me this repulsed look, like “not agaaaain” I have to beg him sometimes. I really need to get a tripod eventually.

  • http://extralargeaslife.com/ Natalie Mulford

    Seeing a psych may help, they can teach you some ways to cope with anxiety, ways to see triggers and ways to help keep you calm. Personally, I have Borderline personality Disorder & Bipolar, with social anxiety, and I know for a fact, I wouldn’t be alive today without the help of doctors and medication. It’s amazing how simple some of the techniques for anxiety can be, and yes, while medication can help, it’s also good to have some natural and normal ways too.

  • http://www.thriftandthread.com/ Lucinda

    I kindly recommended seeing a psychiatrist before starting a course of medication especially if the thought of the side effects is making you anxious. All the best x

  • sofievandevenne

    Beautiful dress! Love how you edited your pics ?

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